A Blot in the 'Scutcheon






ACT III

          SCENE I.—The end of the Yew-tree Avenue under MILDRED'S Window.
          A light seen through a central red pane

          Enter TRESHAM through the trees

     Again here!  But I cannot lose myself.
     The heath—the orchard—I have traversed glades
     And dells and bosky paths which used to lead
     Into green wild-wood depths, bewildering
     My boy's adventurous step.  And now they tend
     Hither or soon or late; the blackest shade
     Breaks up, the thronged trunks of the trees ope wide,
     And the dim turret I have fled from, fronts
     Again my step; the very river put
     Its arm about me and conducted me
     To this detested spot.  Why then, I'll shun
     Their will no longer:  do your will with me!
     Oh, bitter!  To have reared a towering scheme
     Of happiness, and to behold it razed,
     Were nothing:  all men hope, and see their hopes
     Frustrate, and grieve awhile, and hope anew.
     But I... to hope that from a line like ours
     No horrid prodigy like this would spring,
     Were just as though I hoped that from these old
     Confederates against the sovereign day,
     Children of older and yet older sires,
     Whose living coral berries dropped, as now
     On me, on many a baron's surcoat once,
     On many a beauty's whimple—would proceed
     No poison-tree, to thrust, from hell its root,
     Hither and thither its strange snaky arms.
     Why came I here?  What must I do?
          [A bell strikes.]
                                        A bell?
     Midnight! and 'tis at midnight... Ah, I catch
     —Woods, river, plains, I catch your meaning now,
     And I obey you!  Hist!  This tree will serve.
          [He retires behind one of the trees.  After a pause,
           enter MERTOUN cloaked as before.]

     MERTOUN.  Not time!  Beat out thy last voluptuous beat
     Of hope and fear, my heart!  I thought the clock
     I' the chapel struck as I was pushing through
     The ferns.  And so I shall no more see rise
     My love-star!  Oh, no matter for the past!
     So much the more delicious task to watch
     Mildred revive:  to pluck out, thorn by thorn,
     All traces of the rough forbidden path
     My rash love lured her to!  Each day must see
     Some fear of hers effaced, some hope renewed:
     Then there will be surprises, unforeseen
     Delights in store.  I'll not regret the past.
          [The light is placed above in the purple pane.]
     And see, my signal rises, Mildred's star!
     I never saw it lovelier than now
     It rises for the last time.  If it sets,
     'Tis that the re-assuring sun may dawn.
          [As he prepares to ascend the last tree of the avenue,
           TRESHAM arrests his arm.]
     Unhand me—peasant, by your grasp!  Here's gold.
     'Twas a mad freak of mine.  I said I'd pluck
     A branch from the white-blossomed shrub beneath
     The casement there.  Take this, and hold your peace.

     TRESHAM.  Into the moonlight yonder, come with me!
     Out of the shadow!

     MERTOUN.            I am armed, fool!

     TRESHAM.                               Yes,
     Or no?  You'll come into the light, or no?
     My hand is on your throat—refuse!—

     MERTOUN.                              That voice!
     Where have I heard... no—that was mild and slow.
     I'll come with you.
          [They advance.]

     TRESHAM.             You're armed:  that's well.  Declare
     Your name:  who are you?

     MERTOUN.                  (Tresham!—she is lost!)

     TRESHAM.  Oh, silent?  Do you know, you bear yourself
     Exactly as, in curious dreams I've had
     How felons, this wild earth is full of, look
     When they're detected, still your kind has looked!
     The bravo holds an assured countenance,
     The thief is voluble and plausible,
     But silently the slave of lust has crouched
     When I have fancied it before a man.
     Your name!

     MERTOUN.    I do conjure Lord Tresham—ay,
     Kissing his foot, if so I might prevail—
     That he for his own sake forbear to ask
     My name!  As heaven's above, his future weal
     Or woe depends upon my silence!  Vain!
     I read your white inexorable face.
     Know me, Lord Tresham!
          [He throws off his disguises.]

     TRESHAM.                Mertoun!
          [After a pause.]
                                       Draw now!

     MERTOUN.                                     Hear me
     But speak first!

     TRESHAM.          Not one least word on your life!
     Be sure that I will strangle in your throat
     The least word that informs me how you live
     And yet seem what you seem!  No doubt 'twas you
     Taught Mildred still to keep that face and sin.
     We should join hands in frantic sympathy
     If you once taught me the unteachable,
     Explained how you can live so and so lie.
     With God's help I retain, despite my sense,
     The old belief—a life like yours is still
     Impossible.  Now draw!

     MERTOUN.                Not for my sake,
     Do I entreat a hearing—for your sake,
     And most, for her sake!

     TRESHAM.                 Ha, ha, what should I
     Know of your ways?  A miscreant like yourself,
     How must one rouse his ire?  A blow?—that's pride
     No doubt, to him!  One spurns him, does one not?
     Or sets the foot upon his mouth, or spits
     Into his face!  Come!  Which, or all of these?

     MERTOUN.  'Twixt him and me and Mildred, Heaven be judge!
     Can I avoid this?  Have your will, my lord!
          [He draws and, after a few passes, falls.]

     TRESHAM.  You are not hurt?

     MERTOUN.                     You'll hear me now!

     TRESHAM.                                          But rise!

     MERTOUN.  Ah, Tresham, say I not "you'll hear me now!"
     And what procures a man the right to speak
     In his defence before his fellow man,
     But—I suppose—the thought that presently
     He may have leave to speak before his God
     His whole defence?

     TRESHAM.            Not hurt?  It cannot be!
     You made no effort to resist me.  Where
     Did my sword reach you?  Why not have returned
     My thrusts?  Hurt where?

     MERTOUN.  My lord—

     TRESHAM.             How young he is!

     MERTOUN.  Lord Tresham, I am very young, and yet
     I have entangled other lives with mine.
     Do let me speak, and do believe my speech!
     That when I die before you presently,—

     TRESHAM.  Can you stay here till I return with help?

     MERTOUN.  Oh, stay by me!  When I was less than boy
     I did you grievous wrong and knew it not—
     Upon my honour, knew it not!  Once known,
     I could not find what seemed a better way
     To right you than I took:  my life—you feel
     How less than nothing were the giving you
     The life you've taken!  But I thought my way
     The better—only for your sake and hers:
     And as you have decided otherwise,
     Would I had an infinity of lives
     To offer you!  Now say—instruct me—think!
     Can you, from the brief minutes I have left,
     Eke out my reparation?  Oh think—think!
     For I must wring a partial—dare I say,
     Forgiveness from you, ere I die?

     TRESHAM.                          I do
     Forgive you.

     MERTOUN.      Wait and ponder that great word!
     Because, if you forgive me, I shall hope
     To speak to you of—Mildred!

     TRESHAM.                      Mertoun, haste
     And anger have undone us.  'Tis not you
     Should tell me for a novelty you're young,
     Thoughtless, unable to recall the past.
     Be but your pardon ample as my own!

     MERTOUN.  Ah, Tresham, that a sword-stroke and a drop
     Of blood or two, should bring all this about
     Why, 'twas my very fear of you, my love
     Of you—(what passion like a boy's for one
     Like you?)—that ruined me!  I dreamed of you—
     You, all accomplished, courted everywhere,
     The scholar and the gentleman.  I burned
     To knit myself to you:  but I was young,
     And your surpassing reputation kept me
     So far aloof!  Oh, wherefore all that love?
     With less of love, my glorious yesterday
     Of praise and gentlest words and kindest looks,
     Had taken place perchance six months ago.
     Even now, how happy we had been!  And yet
     I know the thought of this escaped you, Tresham!
     Let me look up into your face; I feel
     'Tis changed above me:  yet my eyes are glazed.
     Where? where?
          [As he endeavours to raise himself, his eye catches the lamp.]
                    Ah, Mildred!  What will Mildred do?
     Tresham, her life is bound up in the life
     That's bleeding fast away!  I'll live—must live,
     There, if you'll only turn me I shall live
     And save her!  Tresham—oh, had you but heard!
     Had you but heard!  What right was yours to set
     The thoughtless foot upon her life and mine,
     And then say, as we perish, "Had I thought,
     All had gone otherwise"?  We've sinned and die:
     Never you sin, Lord Tresham! for you'll die,
     And God will judge you.

     TRESHAM.                 Yes, be satisfied!
     That process is begun.

     MERTOUN.                And she sits there
     Waiting for me!  Now, say you this to her—
     You, not another—say, I saw him die
     As he breathed this, "I love her"—you don't know
     What those three small words mean!  Say, loving her
     Lowers me down the bloody slope to death
     With memories... I speak to her, not you,
     Who had no pity, will have no remorse,
     Perchance intend her... Die along with me,
     Dear Mildred! 'tis so easy, and you'll 'scape
     So much unkindness!  Can I lie at rest,
     With rude speech spoken to you, ruder deeds
     Done to you?—heartless men shall have my heart,
     And I tied down with grave-clothes and the worm,
     Aware, perhaps, of every blow—oh God!—
     Upon those lips—yet of no power to tear
     The felon stripe by stripe!  Die, Mildred!  Leave
     Their honourable world to them!  For God
     We're good enough, though the world casts us out.
          [A whistle is heard.]

     TRESHAM.  Ho, Gerard!
          Enter GERARD, AUSTIN and GUENDOLEN, with lights
                            No one speak!  You see what's done.
     I cannot bear another voice.

     MERTOUN.                      There's light—
     Light all about me, and I move to it.
     Tresham, did I not tell you—did you not
     Just promise to deliver words of mine
     To Mildred?

     TRESHAM.     I will bear those words to her.

     MERTOUN.  Now?

     TRESHAM.        Now.  Lift you the body, and leave me
     The head.
          [As they have half raised MERTOUN, he turns suddenly.]

     MERTOUN.  I knew they turned me:  turn me not from her!
     There! stay you! there!
          [Dies.]

     GUENDOLEN [after a pause].  Austin, remain you here
     With Thorold until Gerard comes with help:
     Then lead him to his chamber.  I must go
     To Mildred.

     TRESHAM.  Guendolen, I hear each word
     You utter.  Did you hear him bid me give
     His message?  Did you hear my promise?  I,
     And only I, see Mildred.

     GUENDOLEN.                She will die.

     TRESHAM.  Oh no, she will not die!  I dare not hope
     She'll die.  What ground have you to think she'll die?
     Why, Austin's with you!

     AUSTIN.                  Had we but arrived
     Before you fought!

     TRESHAM.            There was no fight at all.
     He let me slaughter him—the boy!  I'll trust
     The body there to you and Gerard—thus!
     Now bear him on before me.

     AUSTIN.                     Whither bear him?

     TRESHAM.  Oh, to my chamber!  When we meet there next,
     We shall be friends.
          [They bear out the body of MERTOUN.]
                           Will she die, Guendolen?

     GUENDOLEN.  Where are you taking me?

     TRESHAM.                              He fell just here.
     Now answer me.  Shall you in your whole life
     —You who have nought to do with Mertoun's fate,
     Now you have seen his breast upon the turf,
     Shall you e'er walk this way if you can help?
     When you and Austin wander arm-in-arm
     Through our ancestral grounds, will not a shade
     Be ever on the meadow and the waste—
     Another kind of shade than when the night
     Shuts the woodside with all its whispers up?
     But will you ever so forget his breast
     As carelessly to cross this bloody turf
     Under the black yew avenue?  That's well!
     You turn your head:  and I then?—

     GUENDOLEN.                          What is done
     Is done.  My care is for the living.  Thorold,
     Bear up against this burden:  more remains
     To set the neck to!

     TRESHAM.             Dear and ancient trees
     My fathers planted, and I loved so well!
     What have I done that, like some fabled crime
     Of yore, lets loose a Fury leading thus
     Her miserable dance amidst you all?
     Oh, never more for me shall winds intone
     With all your tops a vast antiphony,
     Demanding and responding in God's praise!
     Hers ye are now, not mine!  Farewell—farewell!
          SCENE II.—MILDRED'S Chamber
          MILDRED alone

     He comes not!  I have heard of those who seemed
     Resourceless in prosperity,—you thought
     Sorrow might slay them when she listed; yet
     Did they so gather up their diffused strength
     At her first menace, that they bade her strike,
     And stood and laughed her subtlest skill to scorn.
     Oh, 'tis not so with me!  The first woe fell,
     And the rest fall upon it, not on me:
     Else should I bear that Henry comes not?—fails
     Just this first night out of so many nights?
     Loving is done with.  Were he sitting now,
     As so few hours since, on that seat, we'd love
     No more—contrive no thousand happy ways
     To hide love from the loveless, any more.
     I think I might have urged some little point
     In my defence, to Thorold; he was breathless
     For the least hint of a defence:  but no,
     The first shame over, all that would might fall.
     No Henry!  Yet I merely sit and think
     The morn's deed o'er and o'er.  I must have crept
     Out of myself.  A Mildred that has lost
     Her lover—oh, I dare not look upon
     Such woe!  I crouch away from it!  'Tis she,
     Mildred, will break her heart, not I!  The world
     Forsakes me:  only Henry's left me—left?
     When I have lost him, for he does not come,
     And I sit stupidly... Oh Heaven, break up
     This worse than anguish, this mad apathy,
     By any means or any messenger!

     TRESHAM [without].  Mildred!

     MILDRED.                      Come in!  Heaven hears me!
          [Enter TRESHAM.]
                                                               You? alone?
     Oh, no more cursing!

     TRESHAM.              Mildred, I must sit.
     There—you sit!

     MILDRED.         Say it, Thorold—do not look
     The curse! deliver all you come to say!
     What must become of me?  Oh, speak that thought
     Which makes your brow and cheeks so pale!

     TRESHAM.                                   My thought?

     MILDRED.  All of it!

     TRESHAM.              How we waded years—ago—
     After those water-lilies, till the plash,
     I know not how, surprised us; and you dared
     Neither advance nor turn back:  so, we stood
     Laughing and crying until Gerard came—
     Once safe upon the turf, the loudest too,
     For once more reaching the relinquished prize!
     How idle thoughts are, some men's, dying men's!
     Mildred,—

     MILDRED.  You call me kindlier by my name
     Than even yesterday:  what is in that?

     TRESHAM.  It weighs so much upon my mind that I
     This morning took an office not my own!
     I might... of course, I must be glad or grieved,
     Content or not, at every little thing
     That touches you.  I may with a wrung heart
     Even reprove you, Mildred; I did more:
     Will you forgive me?

     MILDRED.              Thorold? do you mock?
     Oh no... and yet you bid me... say that word!

     TRESHAM.  Forgive me, Mildred!—are you silent, Sweet?

     MILDRED [starting up].  Why does not Henry Mertoun come to-night?
     Are you, too, silent?
          [Dashing his mantle aside, and pointing to his scabbard,
           which is empty.]
                            Ah, this speaks for you!
     You've murdered Henry Mertoun!  Now proceed!
     What is it I must pardon?  This and all?
     Well, I do pardon you—I think I do.
     Thorold, how very wretched you must be!

     TRESHAM.  He bade me tell you...

     MILDRED.                          What I do forbid
     Your utterance of!  So much that you may tell
     And will not—how you murdered him... but, no!
     You'll tell me that he loved me, never more
     Than bleeding out his life there:  must I say
     "Indeed," to that?  Enough!  I pardon you.

     TRESHAM.  You cannot, Mildred! for the harsh words, yes:
     Of this last deed Another's judge:  whose doom
     I wait in doubt, despondency and fear.

     MILDRED.  Oh, true!  There's nought for me to pardon!  True!
     You loose my soul of all its cares at once.
     Death makes me sure of him for ever!  You
     Tell me his last words?  He shall tell me them,
     And take my answer—not in words, but reading
     Himself the heart I had to read him late,
     Which death...

     TRESHAM.        Death?  You are dying too?  Well said
     Of Guendolen!  I dared not hope you'd die:
     But she was sure of it.

     MILDRED.                 Tell Guendolen
     I loved her, and tell Austin...

     TRESHAM.                         Him you loved:
     And me?

     MILDRED.  Ah, Thorold!  Was't not rashly done
     To quench that blood, on fire with youth and hope
     And love of me—whom you loved too, and yet
     Suffered to sit here waiting his approach
     While you were slaying him?  Oh, doubtlessly
     You let him speak his poor confused boy's-speech
     —Do his poor utmost to disarm your wrath
     And respite me!—you let him try to give
     The story of our love and ignorance,
     And the brief madness and the long despair—
     You let him plead all this, because your code
     Of honour bids you hear before you strike:
     But at the end, as he looked up for life
     Into your eyes—you struck him down!

     TRESHAM.                              No!  No!
     Had I but heard him—had I let him speak
     Half the truth—less—had I looked long on him
     I had desisted!  Why, as he lay there,
     The moon on his flushed cheek, I gathered all
     The story ere he told it:  I saw through
     The troubled surface of his crime and yours
     A depth of purity immovable,
     Had I but glanced, where all seemed turbidest
     Had gleamed some inlet to the calm beneath;
     I would not glance:  my punishment's at hand.
     There, Mildred, is the truth! and you—say on—
     You curse me?

     MILDRED.       As I dare approach that Heaven
     Which has not bade a living thing despair,
     Which needs no code to keep its grace from stain,
     But bids the vilest worm that turns on it
     Desist and be forgiven,—I—forgive not,
     But bless you, Thorold, from my soul of souls!
          [Falls on his neck.]
     There!  Do not think too much upon the past!
     The cloud that's broke was all the same a cloud
     While it stood up between my friend and you;
     You hurt him 'neath its shadow:  but is that
     So past retrieve?  I have his heart, you know;
     I may dispose of it:  I give it you!
     It loves you as mine loves!  Confirm me, Henry!
          [Dies.]

     TRESHAM.  I wish thee joy, Beloved!  I am glad
     In thy full gladness!

     GUENDOLEN [without].  Mildred!  Tresham!
          [Entering with AUSTIN.]
                                               Thorold,
     I could desist no longer.  Ah, she swoons!
     That's well.

     TRESHAM.       Oh, better far than that!

     GUENDOLEN.                                She's dead!
     Let me unlock her arms!

     TRESHAM.                 She threw them thus
     About my neck, and blessed me, and then died:
     You'll let them stay now, Guendolen!

     AUSTIN.                               Leave her
     And look to him!  What ails you, Thorold?

     GUENDOLEN.                                 White
     As she, and whiter!  Austin! quick—this side!

     AUSTIN.  A froth is oozing through his clenched teeth;
     Both lips, where they're not bitten through, are black:
     Speak, dearest Thorold!

     TRESHAM.  Something does weigh down
     My neck beside her weight:  thanks:  I should fall
     But for you, Austin, I believe!—there, there,
     'Twill pass away soon!—ah,—I had forgotten:
     I am dying.

     GUENDOLEN.  Thorold—Thorold—why was this?

     TRESHAM.  I said, just as I drank the poison off,
     The earth would be no longer earth to me,
     The life out of all life was gone from me.
     There are blind ways provided, the fore-done
     Heart-weary player in this pageant-world
     Drops out by, letting the main masque defile
     By the conspicuous portal:  I am through—
     Just through!

     GUENDOLEN.  Don't leave him, Austin!  Death is close.

     TRESHAM.  Already Mildred's face is peacefuller,
     I see you, Austin—feel you; here's my hand,
     Put yours in it—you, Guendolen, yours too!
     You're lord and lady now—you're Treshams; name
     And fame are yours:  you hold our 'scutcheon up.
     Austin, no blot on it!  You see how blood
     Must wash one blot away:  the first blot came
     And the first blood came.  To the vain world's eye
     All's gules again:  no care to the vain world,
     From whence the red was drawn!

     AUSTIN.  No blot shall come!

     TRESHAM.  I said that:  yet it did come.  Should it come,
     Vengeance is God's, not man's.  Remember me!
          [Dies.]

     GUENDOLEN [letting fall the pulseless arm].
     Ah, Thorold, we can but—remember you!
     The End





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