The Blue Moon

THE WHITE DOE

One day, as the king’s huntsman was riding in the forest, he came to a small pool. Fallen leaves covering its surface had given it the colour of blood, and knee-deep in their midst stood a milk-white doe drinking.

The beauty of the doe set fire to the huntsman’s soul; he took an arrow and aimed well at the wild heart of the creature. But as he was loosing the string the branch of a tree overhanging the pool struck him across the face, and caught hold of him by the hair; and arrow and doe vanished away together into the depths of the forest.

Never until now, since he entered the king’s service, had the huntsman missed his aim. The thought of the white doe living after he had willed its death inflamed him with rage; he could not rest till he had brought hounds on the trail, determined to follow until it had surrendered to him its life.

All day, while he hunted, the woods stayed breathless, as if to watch; not a blade moved, not a leaf fell. About noon a red deer crossed his path; but he paid no heed, keeping his hounds only to the white doe’s trail.

At sunset a fallow deer came to disturb the scent, and through the twilight, as it deepened, a grey wolf ran in and out of the underwood. When night came down, his hounds fled from his call, following through tangled thickets a huge black boar with crescent tusks. So he found himself alone, with his horse so weary that it could scarcely move.

But still, though the moon was slow in its rising, the fever of the chase burned in the huntsman’s veins, and caused him to press on. For now he found himself at the rocky entrance of a ravine whence no way led; and the white doe being still before him, he made sure that he would get her at last. So when his horse fell, too tired to rise again, he dismounted and forced his way on; and soon he saw before him the white doe, labouring up an ascent of sharp crags, while closer and higher the rocks rose and narrowed on every side. Presently she had leapt high upon a boulder that shook and swayed as her feet rested, and ahead the wall of rocks had joined so that there was nowhere farther that she might go.

Then the huntsman notched an arrow, and drew with full strength, and let it go. Fast and straight it went, and the wind screamed in the red feathers as they flew; but faster the doe overleapt his aim, and, spurning the stone beneath, down the rough-bouldered gully sent it thundering, shivering to fragments as it fell. Scarcely might the huntsman escape death as the great mass swept past: but when the danger was over he looked ahead, and saw plainly, where the stone had once stood, a narrow opening in the rock, and a clear gleam of moonlight beyond.

That way he went, and passing through, came upon a green field, as full of flowers as a garden, duskily shining now, and with dark shadows in all its folds. Round it in a great circle the rocks made a high wall, so high that along their crest forest-trees as they clung to look over seemed but as low-growing thickets against the sky.

The huntsman’s feet stumbled in shadow and trod through thick grass into a quick-flowing streamlet that ran through the narrow way by which he had entered. He threw himself down into its cool bed, and drank till he could drink no more. When he rose he saw, a little way off, a small dwelling-house of rough stone, moss-covered and cosy, with a roof of wattles which had taken root and pushed small shoots and clusters of grey leaves through their weaving. Nature, and not man, seemed there to have been building herself an abode.

Before the doorway ran the stream, a track of white mist showing where it wound over the meadow; and by its edge a beautiful maiden sat, and was washing her milk-white feet and arms in the wrinkling eddies.

To the huntsman she became all at once the most beautiful thing that the world contained; all the spirit of the chase seemed to be in her blood, and each little movement of her feet made his heart jump for joy. “I have looked for you all my life!” thought he, as he halted and gazed, not daring to speak lest the lovely vision should vanish, and the memory of it mock him for ever.

The beautiful maiden looked up from her washing. “Why have you come here?” said she.

The huntsman answered her as he believed to be the truth, “I have come because I love you!”

“No,” she said, “you came because you wanted to kill the white doe. If you wish to kill her, it is not likely that you can love me.”

“I do not wish to kill the white doe!” cried the huntsman; “I had not seen you when I wished that. If you do not believe that I love you, take my bow and shoot me to the heart; for I will never go away from you now.”

At his word she took one of the arrows, looking curiously at the red feathers, and to test the sharp point she pressed it against her breast. “Have a care!” cried the hunter, snatching it back. He drew his breath sharply and stared. “It is strange,” he declared; “a moment ago I almost thought that I saw the white doe.”

“If you stay here to-night,” said the maiden, “about midnight you will see the white doe go by. Take this arrow, and have your bow ready, and watch! And if to-morrow, when I return, the arrow is still unused in your hand, I will believe you when you say that you love me. And you have only to ask, and I will do all that you desire.”

Then she gave the huntsman food and drink and a bed of ferns upon which to rest. “Sleep or wake,” said she as she parted from him; “if truly you have no wish to kill the white doe, why should you wake? Sleep!”

“I do not wish to kill the white doe,” said the huntsman. Yet he could not sleep: the memory of the one wild creature which had escaped him stung his blood. He looked at the arrow which he held ready, and grew thirsty at the sight of it. “If I see, I must shoot!” cried his hunter’s heart. “If I see, I must not shoot!” cried his soul, smitten with love for the beautiful maiden, and remembering her word. “Yet, if I see, I know I must shoot—so shall I lose all!” he cried as midnight approached, and the fever of long waiting remained unassuaged.

Then with a sudden will he drew out his hunting-knife, and scored the palms of his two hands so deeply that he could no longer hold his bow or draw the arrow upon the string. “Oh, fair one, I have kept my word to you!” he cried as midnight came. “The bow and the arrow are both ready.”

Looking forth from the threshold by which he lay, he saw pale moonlight and mist making a white haze together on the outer air. The white doe ran by, a body of silver; like quicksilver she ran. And the huntsman, the passion to slay rousing his blood, caught up arrow and bow, and tried in vain with his maimed hands to notch the shaft upon the string.

The beautiful creature leapt lightly by, between the curtains of moonbeam and mist; and as she went she sprang this way and that across the narrow streamlet, till the pale shadows hid her altogether from his sight. “Ah! ah!” cried the huntsman, “I would have given all my life to be able to shoot then! I am the most miserable man alive; but to-morrow I will be the happiest. What a thing is love, that it has known how to conquer in me even my hunter’s blood!”

In the morning the beautiful maiden returned; she came sadly. “I gave you my word,” said she: “here I am. If you have the arrow still with you as it was last night, I will be your wife, because you have done what never huntsman before was able to do—not to shoot at the white doe when it went by.”

The huntsman showed her the unused arrow; her beauty made him altogether happy. He caught her in his arms, and kissed her till the sun grew high. Then she brought food and set it before him; and taking his hand, “I am your wife,” said she, “and with all my heart my will is to serve you faithfully. Only, if you value your happiness, do not shoot ever at the white doe.” Then she saw that there was blood on his hand, and her face grew troubled. She saw how the other hand also was wounded. “How came this?” she asked; “dear husband, you were not so hurt yesterday.”

And the huntsman answered, “I did it for fear lest in the night I should fail, and shoot at the white doe when it came.”

Hearing that, his wife trembled and grew white. “You have tricked us both,” she said, “and have not truly mastered your desire. Now, if you do not promise me on your life and your soul, or whatever is dearer, never to shoot at a white doe, sorrow will surely come of it. Promise me, and you shall certainly be happy!”

So the huntsman promised faithfully, saying, “On your life, which is dearer to me than my own, I give you my word to keep that it shall be so.” Then she kissed him, and bound up his wounds with healing herbs; and to look at her all that day, and for many days after, was better to him than all the hunting the king’s forests could provide.

For a whole year they lived together in perfect happiness, and two children came to bless their union—a boy and a girl born at the same hour. When they were but a month old, they could run; and to see them leaping and playing before the door of their home made the huntsman’s heart jump for joy. “They are forest-born, and they come of a hunter’s blood; that is why they run so early, and have such limbs,” said he.

“Yes,” answered his wife, “that is partly why. When they grow older they will run so fast—do not mistake them for deer if ever you go hunting.”

No sooner had she said the word than the memory of it, which had slept for a whole year, stirred his blood. The scent of the forest blew up through the rocky ravine, which he had never repassed since the day when he entered, and he laid his hands thoughtfully on the weapons he no longer used.

Such restlessness took hold of him all that day that at night he slept ill, and, waking, found himself alone with no wife at his side. Gazing about the room, he saw that the cradle also was empty. “Why,” he wondered, “have they gone out together in the middle of the night?”

Yet he gave it little more thought, and turning over, fell into a troubled sleep, and dreamed of hunting and of the white doe that he had seen a year before stooping to drink among the red leaves that covered the forest pool.

In the morning his wife was by his side, and the little ones lay asleep upon their crib. “Where were you,” he asked, “last night? I woke, and you were not here.”

His wife looked at him tenderly, and sighed. “You should shut your eyes better,” said she. “I went out to see the white doe, and the little ones came also. Once a year I see her; it is a thing I must not miss.”

The beauty of the white doe was like strong drink to his memory: the beautiful limbs that had leapt so fast and escaped—they alone, of all the wild life in the world, had conquered him. “Ah!” he cried, “let me see her, too; let her come tame to mv hand, and I will not hurt her!”

His wife answered: “The heart of the white doe is too wild a thing; she cannot come tame to the hand of any hunter under heaven. Sleep again, dear husband, and wake well! For a whole year you have been sufficiently happy; the white doe would only wound you again in your two hands.”

When his wife was not by, the hunter took the two children upon his knee, and said, “Tell me, what was the white doe like? what did she do? and what way did she go?”

The children sprang off his knee, and leapt to and fro over the stream. “She was like this,” they cried, “and she did this, and this was the way she went!” At that the hunter drew his hand over his brow. “Ah,” he said, “I seemed then almost to see the white doe.”

Little peace had he from that day. Whenever his wife was not there he would call the little ones to him, and cry, “Show me the white doe and what she did.” And the children would leap and spring this way and that over the little stream before the door, crying, “She was like this, and she did this, and this was the way she went!”

The huntsman loved his wife and children with a deep affection, yet he began to have a dread that there was something hidden from his eyes which he wished yet feared to know. “Tell me,” he cried one day, half in wrath, when the fever of the white doe burned more than ever in his blood, “tell me where the white doe lives, and why she comes, and when next. For this time I must see her, or I shall die of the longing that has hold of me!” Then, when his wife would give no answer, he seized his bow and arrows and rushed out into the forest, which for a whole year had not known him, slaying all the red deer he could find.

Many he slew in his passion, but he brought none of them home, for before the end a strange discovery came to him, and he stood amazed, dropping the haunch which he had cut from his last victim. “It is a whole year,” he said to himself, “that I have not tasted meat; I, a hunter, who love only the meat that I kill!”

Returning home late, he found his wife troubling her heart over his long absence. “Where have you been?” she asked him, and the question inflamed him into a fresh passion.

“I have been out hunting for the white doe,” he cried; “and she carries a spot in her side where some day my arrow must enter. If I do not find her I shall die!”

His wife looked at him long and sorrowfully; then she said: “On your life and soul be it, and on mine also, that your anger makes me tell what I would have kept hidden. It is to-night that she comes. Now it remains for you to remember your word once given to me!”

“Give it back to me!” he cried; “it is my fate to finish the quest of the white doe.”

“If I give it,” said she, “your happiness goes with it, and mine, and that of our children.”

“Give it back to me!” he said again; “I cannot live unless I may master the white doe! If she will come tame to my hand, no harm shall happen to her.”

And when she denied him again, he gave her his bow and arrows, and bade her shoot him to the heart, since without his word rendered back to him he could not live.

Then his wife took both his hands and kissed them tenderly, and with loud weeping quickly set him free of his promise. “As well,” said she, “ask the hunter to go bound to the lion’s den as the white doe to come tame into your keeping; though she loved you with all her heart, you could not look at her and not be her enemy.” She gazed on him with full affection, and sighed deeply. “Lie down for a little,” she said, “and rest; it is not till midnight that she comes. When she comes I will wake you.”

She took his head in her hands and set it upon her knee, making him lie down. “If she will come and stand tame to my hand,” he said again, “then I will do her no harm.”

After a while he fell asleep; and, dreaming of the white doe, started awake to find it was already midnight, and the white doe standing there before him. But as soon as his eyes lighted on her they kindled with such fierce ardour that she trembled and sprang away out of the door and across the stream. “Ah, ah, white doe, white doe!” cried the wind in the feathers of the shaft that flew after her.

Just at her leaping of the stream the arrow touched her; and all her body seemed to become a mist that dissolved and floated away, broken into thin fragments over the fast-flowing stream.

By the hunter’s side his wife lay dead, with an arrow struck into her heart. The door of the house was shut; it seemed to be only an evil dream from which he had suddenly awakened. But the arrow gave real substance to his hand: when he drew it out a few true drops of blood flowed after. Suddenly the hunter knew all he had done. “Oh, white doe, white doe!” he cried, and fell down with his face to hers.

At the first light of dawn he covered her with dried ferns, that the children might not see how she lay there dead. “Run out,” he cried to them, “run out and play! Play as the white doe used to do!” And the children ran out and leapt this way and that across the stream, crying, “She was like this, and she did this, and this was the way she went!”

So while they played along the banks of the stream, the hunter took up his beautiful dead wife and buried her. And to the children he said, “Your mother has gone away; when the white doe comes she will return also.”

“She was like this,” they cried, laughing and playing, “and she did this, and this was the way she went!” And all the time as they played he seemed to see the white doe leaping before him in the sunlight.

That night the hunter lay sleepless on his bed, wishing for the world to end; but in the crib by his side the two children lay in a sound slumber. Then he saw plainly in the moonlight the white doe, with a red mark in her side, standing still by the doorway. Soon she went to where the young ones were lying, and, as she touched the coverlet softly with her right fore-foot, all at once two young fawns rose up from the ground and sprang away into the open, following where the white doe beckoned them.

Nor did they ever return. For the rest of his life the huntsman stayed where they left him, a sorrowful and lonely man. In the grave where lay the woman’s form he had slain he buried his bow and arrows far from the sight of the sun or the reach of his own hand; and coming to the place night by night, he would watch the mists and the moonrise, and cry, “White doe, white doe, will you not some day forgive me?” and did not know that she had forgiven him when, before she died, she kissed his two hands and made him sleep for the last time with his head on her knee.